I just got an offer to do a PhD in cancer research. I’m really happy but I’m letting my anxiety hold me back. The events of the past year were immensely difficult, I was blamed, judged and belittled by my supervisor. I now have a new supervisor but I’m afraid to return to that environment. There are regular seminars and I’m scared to see everyone again, I’m scared to be judged again. There’s still a lot of pain but this is an amazing project that I am grateful to have the opportunity to take part in. I was offered it because the person running it saw something in me and my writing skills, so I hope to make them proud.
I don’t quite know how to heal the pain still. All I know is that I will avoid that toxic environment that I was once in and never let the people who hurt me in again.