Today was hard. I had a bit of a reality check because I finally weighed in. Before I started my fitness journey, I have no idea what my start weight was. I am terrified of the scale, it makes me obsessive, it makes me deprive myself of food. I weighed more than I expected, like way more. Now I wonder how much I weighed at the start. Anyway, this is another beginning. Currently, I weigh 78kg and I didn’t realise I let the binge eating get to me that much. My goal is 56 kg, so I’m going to work on losing 22kg. It was so easy to put in and unfortunately, it’s going to be very hard to lose it.
The next year is going to be difficult, I’m starting a PhD and I’m trying to get my confidence back. I’m up for the challenge, I am ready to change because I don’t want to go back. I want to feel good and be healthy again.
Thanks for reading my journal and letting me share my journey with you!