Slowly…ever so slowly it’s getting easier
I rehearse words
‘People’s actions aren’t their own actions’
‘If you give it your all and they still step on you, it’s their problem’
I’m getting better at it
The negativity is disappearing
I can finally be free
I am becoming free!
‘It’s always your fault’ is ringing in my mind again
I looked away for one second
I stopped my mental rehearsals
And it’s returned.