‘People aren’t talking about you.’
‘It’s all in your head.’
‘You need to breathe.’
That’s what I tell myself…
I cannot breathe
Fear envelopes me
Everyone around me is judging me
I am the one they talk about
My circumstances were so unique
Therefore, I will be singled out
I hope that’s not true…
No one wants a reminder of that pain you went through
They were part of it
Why would they want that reminder?
Everyone just wants to be happy.
Then again…I hope they feel
I hope they regret.
I hope they suffer with their consequences
I hope the feeling of anger and hatred for me blossoms within them
Because for me that’s the most painful thing.
That’s what I have to endure.
I don’t care if you hate me…
As long as it hurts.
Like it hurts me
Because all I seek is forgiveness towards others, yet I feel revenge
Revenge is not virtuous, revenge is suffocating