Hi everyone, this is part one of a short story I have been working on. I hope through writing more narratives, I’ll be able to develop my writing skills. Thanks for reading!
I sat there, staring into space, thinking of my next steps, thinking of how to fix this shitty situation I found myself in. I had pissed off my boss, and she then felt the need to tell others about my incompetency rather than come to me with it. The scenario repeated on a continuous cycle in my head, like someone was constantly pressing the replay button. I had no control over my mind. I blamed myself and couldn’t think of a way to fix this mess. The fear and embarrassment took over. People would surely think I’m stupid and not fit to work here.
‘It’s clear as day that I’m the issue, otherwise she wouldn’t have said anything’ I thought to myself.
Unable to deal with the emotions, I froze. There I was, sitting at my desk, in a trance caused by the endless replaying of events in my mind. I couldn’t think or work. Then, it all happened so suddenly. The world around me faded to pitch black. It was only for a millisecond, then I found myself in a completely different setting.
‘Eh?’ I said, confused.
I blinked a few times to check if my eyes were deceiving me. Then did that obligatory arm pinch to see if I had somehow fallen asleep without noticing.
I didn’t wake up.
I was definitely awake…
As ridiculous as my recount of events sound, I found myself sitting on a single bed in a small wooden cabin. It was lightly furnished with the necessities; a bed, fireplace, as well as a kitchenette and was dimly lit by windows.
Taking in my surroundings, the scenery outside the window caught my attention.
For a moment, I was almost stricken with awe. In front of me was an emerald green forest, with trees so high I had to awkwardly crane my neck up to see the top. The forest floor was covered in shrubs, with patched of red mushrooms and flowers breaking up the green. As quickly as I saw it’s beauty, fear had gripped me. This isn’t something you’d see where I’m from.
We don’t have luscious green forests.
‘Why the fuck am I here?’ I said, half expecting someone to provide answers.
I turned to scan the cabin. There was zilch. It was as basic as possible. Then the view from the window above the bed caught my eye.
My mouth dropped.
Through the window, I had a first person view of my work desk. Obviously, I wasn’t at my desk, so naturally I freaked the fuck out.
‘What the fuck? What the fuck? What the fuck?’ I panicked.
I tried grasping the window to see if it was a picture or something pasted to the window.
‘You’re an idiot, it’s…my hands are moving’.
My mind began to race, as it should in a situation like that.
In a frantic effort to discover what was going on I turned cabin upside down, searching for some sort of answer as to why I was there. I checked the kitchen cabinets and search under the mattress. I found nothing.
Anxiety set in and I could sense a panic attack coming on.
I’d like to think I would keep a clear head in stressful situation, however; this was too fucking bizarre to keep a cool head.
I began to hyperventilate. I kept gasping for air. Not matter how much I took into my lungs, it was never enough.
Less than a minute into my panic attack, and without any warning, the cabin began to shake violently. This worked in my favour however, because my mind was distracted enough to stop panicking.
‘Is this an earthquake?’
My eyes darted to the window.
Everything was definitely moving, inside and out.
‘What about the other window with my desk?’
It wasn’t moving.
As quickly as the earthquake started, it subsided.
Now, looking back I’m amazed at how quickly I came to this conclusion whilst in that state of mind, but I put two and two together. I could see myself working though the other window and at the exact moment I have a panic attack, there was an earthquake. I had caused the shaking by panicking and wherever the fuck I was seemed to be connected to my state of mind.
I stared at my working hands, thinking.
‘Was I in my mind?’ I wondered.
Yet, that wasn’t the thought that scared me, what was controlling my body?
I walked over to the other window and continued to watch my body was doing. It was now texting my friend.
‘Well it’s good to know I am functioning normally at least’ I thought to myself.
Then, I took a closer look at what it was typing and it was complete gibberish.
‘Oh, that’s just great’. I said anxiously.
My fear of humiliation was once again taking over. I could feel the inability to breathe returning.
‘Don’t panic, you need to find a way back.’