Every single breath,
Doesn’t feel whole.
It’s a tiny fraction of what it once was.
I don’t know why I let the pain in,
The hurt becomes too much to bare.
I haven’t been myself for a while,
And now everything is resurfacing suddenly.
I long for the time my breaths were whole,
A time my brain was quiet.
It seems so distant now.
I miss the days where being inside wasn’t claustrophobic.
The fresh air is calming,
But outside it’s too bright.
There’s not enough warmth in my heart to stand it.
So now I hover between,
Dark or light.
Accept breathlessness and remain in the shadows,
Or let my heart open up to the light.