Sometimes I feel like I’m looking upon my actions and not doing them. Recently, I’ve become stressed about my mothers money troubles and I’ve been trying to help her out as best I can. Coming from a single income household, I need to do my part now that I’m an adult. So, what’s holding me back from work? The mental exhaustion I think.
My father who is very much still present in our lives is an addict and it can be quite an emotionally abusive situation. I have always been the adult and it seems like I’m the only adult. I feel as if am looking upon myself from a third person view. Maybe it’s imposter syndrome, but I don’t feel like an adult and I don’t think I ever have. Yet, I am stringed into this and it is quite exhausting. That might be the root of it, I needed to grow up too fast to emotionally support others.
As I grow up, I’m starting to wonder if there is any point we figure out what’s going on. Do we ever fit the shoes we need to fill? I hope one day I can. With a PhD to focus on, the stress is definitely getting to me. But at the end of the day, we can only try our hardest and there is no obligation to be the adult for others. So, as part of this post I want to fill some typical journal prompts. These are mostly ones I’ve found are good for gratitude and self discovery. While life can be a struggle, we just need to remember we can get through this.
List three things you’re grateful for
- My opportunities.
- My loving pets.
- All the leisure items I own.
What can you do to make your day better?
- Write a blog post.
- Play some video games.
- Cuddle a doggo or cat.
- Read a book.
- Cook fried chicken.
What’s your focus for today?
Finishing my presentation and getting my dog to the vet.
How will you achieve the tasks you need to?
I will focus on myself with keeping important matters in mind. Although, if it becomes too stressful, I’ll take myself out of the situation as best I can.
I stole most of these from the app stoic, however; they help me gain a sense of direction which is great. Before I finish the post, here’s a quote to keep you thinking.
Thanks for reading!