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Feeling Myself – 16th of December

I spent the day relaxing in bed with my cat. I kind of feel like I should leave the house but it’s summer and it’s too hot outside. I recently finished my course and I am continuing to find myself being unsatisfied with what I’m doing. I just sit at home doing nothing… which don’t get me wrong I love relaxing for once but I want to do something more.

I don’t want a job because I’m going to continue studying. Or maybe it’s not so much I don’t want one…I’m just afraid because I’ve only ever tutored before and no one will probably hire me. Oh well. Eventually I will get the courage to apply.

During the past year I gained a lot of weight due to my mental health and I’m trying to lose that currently. I just don’t feel confident in my own skin anymore. I started doing keto yesterday because I’ve done it in the past and it did help. But it’s also because I find myself snacking on chips and just carbs in general. So I’m using this as a way to eat healthier. And so far I’ve been eating more greens but let’s hope I can keep it up. I want to feel completely myself again.

Also here’s a picture of my cat, he’s a little shit but I love him.