Change in View

I see you there We’ve known each other for so long. I look back on our long conversations, Always smiling, You’re so easy to talk to. You’re such a good person, A good friend, Thank you. I had a dream last night, You held me, Comforted me, I felt safe. When I awoke, I wasContinue reading “Change in View”

Breathless

I cannot breathe. I need someone to understand. No wait… I need approval, Of these thoughts and feelings Why does it feel wrong to feel? My chest pulses. My mind races while I wait, Wait for someone to listen, And show their approval. It’s so hard to breathe now. I need to stop searching forContinue reading “Breathless”

Romanticising Your Life

Recently, an idea that has become popular on tiktok is romanticising your life. While this notion sounds well, romantic, I’ve discovered I don’t entirely know what it means. Any attempt I have made has left me with some sort of anxiety, coming to the realisation that I’m not romanticising anything. So naturally, to understand it,Continue reading “Romanticising Your Life”

Empty

I can feel everything, All the pain and heartache, Every moment of torture endured. Yet, all that’s present is emptiness. I thought to be empty was freedom, From emotion, I was wrong. It’s when you’ve felt so much, That every inch of you has been taken, All that’s left is the trauma felt. I amContinue reading “Empty”

Creating a Safe Space

It’s hard to express your thoughts, especially when telling someone. Often at times you don’t even need to voice them, just write or draw them. Something that really helps with expression is a safe space. While there are formal definitions, for me it’s a place where I can store my thoughts, feelings and desires. ForContinue reading “Creating a Safe Space”

Stalemate

All you do is hurt The laughter and love is gone. Yet, she stays. Mentally, I have left. I know the consequences of being around him. But you simply ignore it. When will enough be enough? What is left for him to take from you? … your children? He couldn’t possibly take that. We’ve seenContinue reading “Stalemate”

Pause

Time moves so fast, It’s hard to take a breath. Thoughts wander, Negativity sets in, I need to stop and breathe. Distractions don’t allow reflection, They only speed up time. Only one thing helps, Pausing. Stop, Take a breath, Create. Let the words flow. It’s only then the mind can be set free So joinContinue reading “Pause”

Attention

I’m cold Not outside, but in I cannot feel anyone’s warmth There’s no love or support to envelope me Only emptiness and ice remains Please, someone hold my hand I need attention My fears are too strong Anxiety is growing. Validate my feelings, It can help set me free. Now that someone’s here, I’m noContinue reading “Attention”

Inspiration

I can see the stars, Shining bright up above. They look down on me smiling. I don’t know when it happened, But now I’m just as bright as them I can feel the light exploding from me My creativity is free It’s going to end soon, This new found light But it’s okay. I madeContinue reading “Inspiration”

What’s Left?

I feel deserted Like I’ve fucked up so much. Somehow it was all my fault, Because it couldn’t be helped. Because it’s a great life lesson. Abuse is abuse There’s no reward from it, No lesson to learn, no right to make excuses for an abuser. While they have everything, I’m on the floor broken.Continue reading “What’s Left?”